Today was a full day
A day I desperately needed for me, and so it was.

LOTS of barn work, house work, and prepping for my daily job;  but I needed this day, and it was profitable. 

I had almost allowed my light to go out.  What you asked?  I am driven by nature... putting my feet on the ground. Putting my fingers through the winter hair of my horses. Planting and getting mud under my nails.   All of which I did today for ME!  

All the animals have had attention today.

Navarre is getting more and more stiff in the back so I will likely start a series of methacarbamol starting tomorrow so possibly next weekend (not this one) he will be comfortable enough to be taken out on a short hack!   Fun for me and him... I am going to cut down Sweet Pea's alfalfa as I also think Navarre is into her feed so... Changers for her so to help him. 

Sweet Pea has a new blanket for warmth...
She is board and a little high strung due to all the alfalfa she is getting which will also be cut back this week.  Causing me yet another trip to the barn as I will have to tie up Navarre and allow Sweet Pea on the pasture, cutting out her alfalfa will hopefully bring her fear down a bar or two. 

The birds all got out... had personal attention, made me and them all happy. 

Took the time to get my life back on track.... Now I'm ready to go back to work head first and enjoying the day.

My pasture is a wonderful crunchy brown... green deep under... but dry enough I was able to allow the kids to graze a little this week.

Navarre is starting to show a little more of a stiff back so he is no longer welcome on the grassy pasture; which breaks my heart as he loves to run, buck and have fun as much as he does pigging out on crunchy munchy grass....

Sweet Pea is enjoying her time, but VERY hot mannered with all her alfalfa and grass so she too was not allowed into the pasture today but will again for an hour each day this week... ? or so goes the plan for the week.

Navarre on the other hand will be have to be kept on the MUDDY side of the fence.

Well went into the office.... asked for time off (just for the night) and GOT IT! It is so nice to have a leader who listens.  SO not used to that!

Back into the grind BUT a new plan under foot.

I hope to go riding This Sunday.  ? Who knows what horse but after so long off I'm liable to go for a visit to the ER .... ha ha ha...

At any cost, I must have a piece of my passion or my heart will shrivell into nothing, my mind will stay amuck, and my life will fall apart. 

DO your PASSION!
I plan to ride... lay in the grass take a nap with SweetPea in hand and ride back home again.

I can not wait till Sunday rolls around...
Till then... work rest work  everyday.

At some point something has to give.

I had a crying fit with my dear hubby just an hour ago.

Actually I asked for some snuggle time and I used up all my time crying like a baby.

Why?
Well lets see?
I work from 4 am to 9am for Pirates' Lair ... I then read my info for work at nine am to get me in the frame of mind for work.

Then I tend to Animals which take about an hour
Then I get a shower ?
Try to get ready for work   have you noticed the double duty in the two past hours?????
and have been at work most of the time by 10 am working in the office till 1:30 or so then out in the field from 2 -9

So ? I'm only working a little over 90 hours a week
NO me time
NO husband time
NO horse time
I've only been doing it for the past 6 months... yes I've gotten really sick, yes I've really hurt my back and not been able to move but even at those times I was reading, researching and doing what I could to learn.

?
Something is about to give... my mind, my soul, my health, my marriage, my horses, or ALL of me?

No I normally don't complain, but super woman  I am not.  I'm going in ... to draw the line.  I can only do so much and EVERYTHING has bent to learning, doing and following for this new job.  ? I can only do so much.